Lord, todays been a busy one...Im not used to being busy.
So after only four and a half hours sleep (thanks Pip!!-my four month old kitten) I had to haul arse out of bed, do some shopping (foolishy havent worked out how long Pips food actually lasts, and you try finding an open chemist on a bank holiday). Then it was getting across medway to go see my besties brother and his flatmates to give them a massage (3 massages in one day, when you havent done one in MONTHS!! You feel it) and then it was over to the besties to hang out and chill. Then back to her brothers to collect the massage table, home, job hunt, be social with one of dads mates...and now, rest.
And tomorrow, its get arse in gear and do some ruddy housework.
I have to be honest, though I tired to the very core-I would be asleep, but this cold is killing me-I actually feel good about having done something today. My life's pretty spent looking for jobs, looking after Pip, watching random tv series (currently Im on Angel) and sleeping. Just being social was nice, and hanging out with your best friend, which we havent done in forever! And her other half cooked dinner, which was just plain NOM!! Kinda felt like the three of us 'back in the old days'. Sometimes its hard being around those two; we were talking about it today. Im happy for her, especially now she's moves (really havent seen her look that happy in a while). She is in a loving relationship, has a job, her own place. I am happy for her, but when you dont have it yourself and you really want it, well, it can leave a bitter aftertaste in your month. Not because I dont want her to have all that, I do, its just painful to look at your own life and you dont. But it makes me work harder to get there. And as I keep saying, the longer your without, its just another day closer to getting it.
Im probably a little more moody about it all because I applied for what is pretty much my dream job the other day; its basically a peer mentor in a local secondary school. An unoffical councillor to help the students. Its perfect. Its exactly what I want to do. I want it so bad. But I have hardly any work exeriance as is, so obviously there are more qualifed people. I just want it so bad but I know the odds are not in my favour. All I could do was write the best application I could, and hope that they see my passion and drive, and are interested enough to give me an interview. Oh well, fingers and pretty much everything else is crossed.
I have more to say, but I really am so tired. And Pip has taken the opportunity to lie right across my chest in an effort to kill me. Isnt he sweet? So yeah, sleep and get all well rested and tomorrow, more job hunting and housework...and more Angel, as Im actually enjoying re-watching it since the first time it was aired over here.